Is: 2=1+1? 4=2+2? Boy=Human? Human=Boy? Pen=Stationaries? Stationaries=Pen? Fate=Destiny? Destiny=Fate

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Looks like i am being ignored by many people... They hated me so much.. They never talk to me nowdays.. They avoided, walked away from me. despise me, scolded me. And me.. would still always treat them as my friend... and i will try my best and work hard.. so as to be accepted by my friends....

LIFE= Living It Fruitfully Everyday.
but it seems like i didn't....

Decided to give it up, so i have to work towards it....
I know it seems impossible for me to.. But i have to try...
Because what i really wanted, was just being normal friends....
Right from the start, i already want to be normal friends....

=)

Had fun yesterday with Coach Dominic=]
We had HAT but too bad Rachel wasn't there...
If not the whole board would be so damn hyper! =]
Jia Le was so extreme when we played Catch Me If You Can....
He screamed so loud that our eardrums nearly burst...
Yesterday course was for prefects=]
and i really enjoyed it! =]
And later at 9am,
we will have our last HAT this year....
And it was so sad...
that you weren't there.....

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We lost to Rivervalley High.....
The judge was somehow bias....
They somehow sided the weak....
Our case were strong enough....
But they say but wasn't strong than them.....
How bias....

:];]

2 hours more the debate is going to start!
I am so excited!!!

The debators are practicing now around me! =]
Although many are playing their own things,
the debators are still busy with their training!=]
Nasya is getting intense with her speeech now=]

EVG! FTW!
ADD OIL, ADD OIL!
I will always support you guys mentally!!=]
Jia Yous!!!

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Everything changes,
except for my loneliness...

Ms Eliz lessons were fun!=]
but then Ms Sherlyn Ng taught better=]
But its after the exams already..
So i think we can take a rest! =]

Tmr is the last day of the term....
Somehow don't like it....
But i am waiting for tmr to come! =]
Cause Nasya, Shawn and Michael are going to Chung Cheng(Yishun) to commence their debates! =]=]
I am sooo excited for it!! =]=]
All the best for tmr!!! =]=]

Today....
I only hoped tmr comes faster......

:I

Still...
It never changes.....

Today had music and somehow i didn't like it as much as two weeks ago...
But thanks Mr Ong for teaching me F#m chords=]
I want to learn for My Heart Will Go On=]
But still,
i miss the times when we played Fall For You....

After music had ICT trail test..
Hate it.....
Got only 27/58...
But at least....
The room was filled only with the sounds of keyboards and clicking...
And it was cool inside...

And Volleyball.....
Doing PT in the Gym mainly......
Then went to the hall and practiced....
I always love it when i see Brian Wong and Leonard=]

But at the end.....
Today was still boring......
I hope tomorrow will be better.....

O_O

Still the same=[
As lonely as before...=[

But,
Today was Jing Han's birthday!!!
HAPPIE BIRTHDAY BRO!!! =]
I dunno if you treat me as one but,
I DEFINITE TREAT YOU AS ONE!

You turned 14 now=]
Congratulations! =]

Today went debate training=]
although i am not in the CCA yet,
but i am so interested in it!! =]
The motion for competition is:
THBT alcohol and tobacco companies should not be allowed to advertise their products.
We are the Opposition.
And River Valley High A team takes the Proposition.

I can't wait to see the intense battling of the two schools on friday!! =]

=[

Life nowadays sucks~
I feel a sudden hatred towards myself...
i feel so helpless....
No ones seems to like talking to me...
Am i really irritating....
Am I.....

Mr Tan =]

Today was boring, except for Physics=]
We had lots of fun together with Mr Tan..
He made the class lively with him shaking his butt or something....

Had Biology And Literature Common Test today....
Literature was hard....
But Biology was harder...
I hate that fish question...
The thingy with seaweed and ask us which experiment is suitable for survival of fish...
I wrote Experiment 2....
T.T
I wonder why is it Experiment 1.....

Next week there is debate=]=]
Michael Wong, Shawn Lim and Nasya=]=]
They are fighting with other schools=]=]
I am going to watch it! =]
I love debate sooo much!! =]=]

Oh ya!!
Vanessa and Justin is going too!! =]=]

Doesn't have anything to write about recently....
I just miss those times when i have many things to write about....

Well, was kinda disappointed with myself...
I lost 4-5 marks for Maths.....
The median for the Students and Books thingy,
and one of the Factorisation or Expansion qustion.
That 121-(p+2)(p+2)..
The answer was somehow:
(-p-13)(p-9) or (13+p)(9-p)
But i forgotten to Simplify further and i put:
[11-(p+2)][11+(p+2)]
How sad....

All are regrets....

I just hope that something would happen at that time,
when we met.....
Where my eyes kept staring....
When you turned back...
It broke...
Literally it broke.....

If time could be rewinded....
How i wish...
I took the initiative to speak to you before you do.....

I didn't see you today.....

Hearing Mr Ong playing 'My Heart Will Go On', I suddenly feel so down...
When he played 'Fall For You', I could no longer take it and broke into tears...

I wonder why.....

Philippe has left 2 Integrity.....
Just for like 8 hours after i bid him goodbye, i missed him so much....
How i wish that i was able to go to the airport and bid him farewell....

Philippe,
You had forgotten to bring your shirt back with you....
Your class tee.... How i wished that you are able to receive it before you leave for France..
Even without the Class Tee, i hoped that you will remember us,
remember the times when we had fun, when we joked with the teachers, and even the times when quarrel starts.. Those things had bonded us together....

When you have your new friends back there, don't forget your friends back in Singapore...
We were very glad to have you in 1 Integrity and 2Integrity....
We will never forget the times, when we had an European Student in our Secondary School....

-Never find a person's fault, cause only a person with fault knows that someone is wrong.
-Closing one eye leaving the other open doesn't mean to forgive, but it means to prepare a shotgun and aim it at you.
-Before blaming others, don't hesitate to blame yourself too.
-Never lead someone, when you cannot even lead yourself...
-(Possible) ask (Impossible), where do you live?,
The (Impossible) said, in a dream that i can do nothing.

-If you want people to respect you, do not try to respect them YET, but respect yourself first.
-Don't have a vicious heart, cause everything you see are vicious.
-Have a wide vision of things, you will get more, you will a bigger world;
Have a narrow view of things, you will get less and see a smaller world.
-Forgiving others, means sparing yourself.
-Overloading of forgiveness means letting others do whatever they want.

Just had my birthday on 7 February and celebrated it with my good friends=]
Thanks for coming and the presents that you guys gave me, i really liked them a lot! =]
But.. how i wished you were here.....

Something tells me that you are not quite happy today...
and i really want to cheer you up...
but i dunno how.......

Common Test is coming...
and i am somehow afraid....
I scared that i will fail...
I really wish to go JC....

原来放下，就是天堂。
握紧双手，却是地域。
原谅且遗忘，一样是天堂。
记恨又报仇，功德全泡汤。
快乐的人之所以快乐，因为他们‘知足常乐’
伤心的人之所以伤心，因为他们‘毫无中心’

I nvr know your posts were so influential,
they influenced me to have feelings,
and influenced me to cry...

Everytime i visit it, i am always prepared for what may happened.
But i never knew that, i wasn't prepared today....

就算我被拒绝了，
我还会一直爱着你，
我想要保护你，
不要让你受到伤害。
我也会永远把你当成我这辈子，
最好的朋友。
我也希望，
我们来生，
还能相见，
也是成为这样的朋友。
我甚至想要当你的弟弟或哥哥，
让我每天能看到你。
也希望，
到了那个时候，
我能想起我的前生，
让我想起，
原来你，
是以前能让我流泪，
也是我爱的女生。
我做了这个决定，
不会后悔。
你要永远的讨厌我的话，
也没关系。
因为就算不能拥有，
我也感觉到了，
我的自由。。。。

1 gold

There is a scholar, who had gotten the Highest mark in the Civil Imperial Examination.
He thinks that he's very smart and went around challenging people.
Many people disliked him and loathes him.

The challenge he made was :
"You can ask me any question, if you could force me to say no, i would give you 1 gold.'
The monk heard this question and decided to challenge him.
The scholar laughed at him and said:
' What can a monk do?? A monk is always staying in the temple praying!'
But i decided to let you ask, if you could force me to say no, i would give you 1 gold.'

Hey friends, guess what the monk asked??

Jing Han....

Jing Han,
i know its tough on you....
and i know she seems uncontrollable....
And i know you have been tolerating her.....
So asking you to continue to tolerate her seems useless...

But,
there was once this story that i came across.
There was a brother and a sister,
the sister was like your sis,
and the brother was exactly like you,
tolerating all that she does.

But that brother continued tolerating her...
and that really went on for 5years.
All these years, the brother went along with her....
And after 5 years, the sis finally stop going against her brother.
And treated her brother better than how the brother treated her....

I know it is a story only,
and i know you wouldn't do that for her....
Its just a suggestion though...
But maybe your sis has the similar character like the sis in the story,
changes after much tolerance from her brother......

Andy and his girlfriend had a fight again.
While that time, they were discussing their marriage.
Out of anger, Andy flung the door open and leaves.
His girlfriend, Lily said:
"Don't ever knock this door again if you are man!"

Two days later, Andy regrets and decided to go back and find Lily.
He pressed the doorbell once, but no one opened up.
He knew that Lily would surely be inside, and pressed once more.
But still no answer...
He said to himself:
"For once more, if she don't intend to open up, i'll give up..."
And the last doorbell went off, but the door remained shut.
Andy walked off in despair......

Several years later, both of them are married to other people.
They met up someday and decided to chat at a nearby restaurant.
Andy asked:
"4 years ago, i pressed your doorbell thrice, why wouldn't you open the door?"
Lily smiled, but her voice seemed very down.
"The first time you pressed the doorbell, i was still very angry."
"The second time you pressed it, i have forgiven you already."

"The third time......"
"I have already left the sofa and walk towards the door, waiting for you to pressed it the fourth time, but i waited for so long, it never rang......"
Andy eyes, was looking at her,
and for moments, his eyes didn't move,
and after a while, tears started dripping.
Having to see this, Lily tapped him on his shoulder and leaves.
She told him:
"To a man, the fourth time seemed to be an abundance,
but to me, the fourth time is what i am waiting for..."
Lily went off and they didn't meet again.......

There is this boy, whom mother had passed away since he was young.
He was left with his father and they were very poor.
They had nothing to eat and were very hungry.

So the father decided to bring his Three-years old son to his neighbour's house to steal some crops in the middle of the night, which he asked his son to keep a lookout for him.

Suddenly, his son said to him,
"Dad! There is someone looking at us!!"
He brought his son and run for a place to hide.
His father looked back, and could not see anyone.
He said,
"Stop joking! Its not funny."

Not long after, his son said to him again,
"Dad! There is really someone looking at us!"
Dad looked back and see no one.
He was very furious and he slapped his son, and said,
"Stop talking nonsense! Tell me then, who is watching?!"
His son could finally talk after crying for a while. He said,
"The.... the moon is watching....."
Suddenly, the father was filled with guiltiness,
and from that day onwards, he promised to be upright and never do such things anymore...

There is a 15 years-old boy, Alex, who loved a girl, Christine, very much...
He would always walk behind her, but she felt uncomfortable.
Although they both had already started their relationship,
Christine was somehow not happy.

They were married and this still continues,
Christine thinks that Alex lacks of something and decided to divorce.
She rented a house outside, in order not to see him...
Alex was so sad....

One day, Christine was sick very badly.
she was helpless and had no one to confide in.
Suddenly, Alex walked in with a bag of medicine on his hands.
Christine was very shocked that he knew she was here,
and even knew that she was not feeling well.

Although they had divorced, but Christine asked him,
"How did you know i was here, and how did you know i am sick?"
Alex said, "It is all because of my habit..."

Christine don't understand, and didn't continued asking,
but she told him to leave and didn't want to see him ever in her life again.
Alex placed the bag of medicine on her bed and told her,
"I think it is better that i change my phone number, in case one day you regret with what you said today.."
Unexpectedly,Christine said,
"You can ease your mind now, i will never want you back in my life."
Alex filled with regret and leaves the room with dripping tears.

Few days later, Christine had recovered and was walking with her mother.
To her surprise, her mother turned to walked behind her instead of walking beside her.
Christine was then curious and asked,
"What is great about walking behind people?"
Her mother said,
"When someones walk behind you, it means that the person respects you and want to put you into his eyes..."
Christine couldn't say a word, and tears were already dripping down her cheeks.
She wanted Alex back, but it is already too late.
Fate, is the only way to bring them back together now,
to let them meet one day....

People that always trys to get your attention, may be your friends.
But people that gives you kind comments, are your true friends.

There is an abbot, who is very old.
He intends to choose one of hie disiples to be his successor when he leaves.
He chose Ted, Faith and Seith.
He sets a nearly impossible task for them
'I will give the three of you a drip of water now, a year later, if any of you could make that drip of water never to evaporate, that person will be my successor'

One year later, Faith told his master,
'I drop the water into a bottle and i sealed in very tightly, but it has gone barely even after 2 days.
Ted came with a Box that is made with metal and sealed completely that not even air can go in,
but when he opened the box, the water had already evaporated.
Seith came empty-handed and the abbot thought that he had failed his mission.
The abbot asked: ' Looks like you failed, didn't you?'
Seith shook his head and said:' No, and i am sure i have completed this task'
The abbot was surprised and asked: 'How did you do it?'
Seith finally said: I dripped it inside the sea.
The abbot grinned and said: 'Yes! The only way to not make the water evaporate, is to put it inside the sea.'
And of course, Seith became the successor.

Never underestimate the power of love.......

Therer's one fine day, when Alex brought her daughter to a far place to play,
and they were very thirsty. In Alex daughter's bag, there are two apples.
Alex asked: 'What will you do with this two apples?'
His daughter said: 'I would give them both a bite!'
Upon hearing this, Alex was very disappointed and fuming mad.
He gave her five-year old daughter a slap, and her daughter cried.
Alex shouted at her: 'Do you care for me!?'
The daughter said: 'I do, thats why i gave them both a bite.....'
Alex couldn't understand what she meant but continued shouted:
' What kind of reason is this!?'
The daughter said:' I gave them both a bite, because i wanna give the sweeter one to Dad...'
Alex upon hearing this, tears shedded down from his eyes.....

There is a family, which has literally nothing left in their house....
One day, heaven saw their situation and decided to sent 'Fame','Wealth' and 'Love' the three angels to their doorsteps.

The wife invited the three of them in.
The angels shake their heads and said:'Only one of us can go in, please make up your mind'
The wife told them to wait a minute and went into discussion.
The Wife said: 'Maybe we should choose 'Wealth' to come in. As our child grows up, we need a lot of money to send him for education.
The husband disagreed and said:' No! We should let 'Fame' come in. Earning money is easy, but getting famous is hard!'

Because of their disagreement, they started to shout at each other, and each time, it gets louder.
The child could not bear to see them fight and shouted:' Why don't we let 'Love' come in, that way, Dad and Mum would not fight anymore!!

Upon hearing this, they stopped fighting and the wife hugged the child.
The wife told them,:'We have decided to let 'Love' to come in.'

After 'Love' went in, the other three angels followed.
The couple was shocked, and the wife asked,:
' I thought only one of you are supposed to come in?'

'Love' said: If you choose either of 'Fame' or 'Wealth', only one can go in, but if you chose me, the 'Love' angel, they will follow wherever i go......'
The couple didn't quite understood and 'Love' finally said,
'Because if you have love, you have everything'

HEY!
I am seriously sorry for not posting for such a long time~~
Hope you guys forgive me okays?

I just complete the orientation with the Sec 1s.
They are really very cute!!
Especially one boy that is called Joel in 1Thinking.

I had fun from the sec1s and I had learn somethings from them.
Made some friends there too.

I am sorry for not attending lessons for 4 days.
Many homeworks is it?
I just got it from Azrul, i think.
The boy who sat beside me....

I missed you guys sooo much,
and i can see you guys tmr,
i am so happy!!

So CQ:
Are the teachers teaching us the various subjects kind?